i don’t want to exist i feel dirty and ruined and i want to completely destroy myself bc im disgusting and a waste of a body lmao
sexual abuse completely fucked me up sometimes i see pics of myself as a kid n just realise how unrecognisable i am now i feel like an intruder
it sounds cheesy but i don’t feel like ill ever be whole again because so much of me died when i was 11 lmao i don’t deserve friends i don’t deserve anyone to look at me and think anything good bc im horrible and gross bye